Thursday, May 31, 2012

I made a lunch every day :)

I am proud to say that I made my boy's a lunch every day they went to school this year!!  They did not eat cafeteria food one single time!  It was easy because I bought Ziploc containers that had 3 compartment's that fit a sandwich, chips and a treat perfectly.  I didn't have to throw away anything, everything was used again.  I am sure that I saved money too!

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Showing Gods love even when you don't feel like it.

It's been kind of a bummer of a day.  In church, I asked god to take away the anger and resentment and hurt I was feeling.  The message was about LOVE; showing love to everyone even when they have hurt you.  Sometimes that is one of the hardest lesson's!  I want to cry out and ask why and demand answers.  It wouldn't be nice of me or probably make me feel better either.

I was very hurt by friends because they chose to not invite me to a girls night.  I am sure it was not intentional by some or that some even thought of including me.  but the ones that did is what makes it hurt.  I don't think that I was even supposed to know and wouldn't have had my mother in law not told me and probably assumed I already knew about.  I would have loved to go and I could have gotten a babysitter easy since husband and oldest son were already out of town.  The more I found out about it the more it makes me feel bad/sad.  I know that there are other people left out too at times and it's not a good feeling.  I especially like to participate when I can go alone and have good conversations with other women.  I don't like wondering if I wasn't invited because of something that I did.  I am good for more than just being a teacher or babysitting.

I don't like to go around and pretend that I am fine about it to the people that know.  It turns me away from wanting to go there or be involved.  I am praying about it.  I want God to give me the desire to show his love and kindness even when I don't want too!